14 Sep 2016
Bipolar disorder and relationships
Am I ever gonna be able to have a stable, balanced relationship? (There it is, I said it lol) It's been quite a while since my last real relationship. I've been dating quite a lot these past years but it always ends up not working for some reason. To be exact I broke up with my last boyfriend just about a time when I fell into depression the first time. Since then it's been a massive rollercoaster for me and bunch of new crushes and heart breaks. I don't know if this is just me or other bipo's as well but since my emotions are big and intense what it comes to feelings in general I also fall in love quickly (and deeply and painfully..) and very often end up breaking my heart. Some people say they don't know if they've ever been in love. It's hard to understand because everybody works differently. In my case I can say I've been in love and as weird as it sounds I feel like I've loved my biggest crushes too. Not that I was desperately trying to make them like me back but my feelings for them were so big I don't know if you can call it just a crush. Or if they were just crushes then me truly loving someone is gonna be as powerfula and intense as volcanic erruption (lol). Because of that vision I'm afraid. Afraid that if and when I find the love of my life after the massive "honeymoon" phase can I still maintain the relationship and how does the love feel after that "phase"?
Lähettänyt Ama klo 10:16