I just gotta keep pushing forward. Most of my days I find myself beating myself down and I feel like I'm a failure, somehow incomplete. I don't do it on purpose or to drown myself in self-pity. It's just something that naturally, unconsciously comes up when I start to compare my life to other people's lives. How lucky people are to have jobs and be able to study. Just to manage, cope with life. Do the necessities.. You really start to respect health fully not until you've lost it. Respect your health people. If anything, that's the most important thing you have in life.